Reverb: Day 1.

Have you started Reverb yet?

I'm very excited. One of my high school BFFs... who also happens to be one of my newest blogging BFFs introduced me to it the other day (You can visit her blog here, and you should, she's super adorable and crafty).

Every day during the month of December, Reverb posts a prompt encouring us to reflect on your year and manifest on what's next. Prompts can be responded to using words or photography.
The end of the year is the time to send out reverberations for the year ahead.'

December 1 One Word.

Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?
(Author: Gwen Bell)

Recovery.

That's my word for this year.

I really, really suck at describing ANYTHING with one word.
I thought about using the word "struggle". But then I realized, that the entire year hasn't been a struggle, because there have been lots of happy times, too. Struggling is part of recovering. And so is learning to be happy again.

Olivia was born in 2009... but I spent the first month or so after she died basically in shock.

2010 was when I actually began to recover.
It's when I started therapy. Started feeling things again.
Pulled my life together.
Allowed myself to reconnect to the things (& people) that I love the most.
I allowed myself to be happy. Stopped skipping out on nights out,
and even nights IN with friends.
I had fun again.
I learned how to remember our daughter not just with grief, but with hapiness.
I re-learned how to love.
Over the course of this year,
I recovered myself.

Next year... I hope that the word I'll choose is hapiness.
I want to look back on 2011 and see how far I've come.
and when I look back, I want to see mostly hapiness.