Sunday, December 20, 2009

Happy One Month Birthday Livie Bear!

Olivia was born ONE month ago today! Can you believe it? I certainly can’t. Time has literally been flying… I can’t believe it’s already been so long! All the details are so fresh in my mind that I feel like we just left the hospital. What a crazy month.

I don’t think I can even put into words how much Kurt and I miss our little girl. We are constantly thinking of her every hour that we’re awake. She’s the first thing we think of before we fall asleep, and the first thing we think of when we wake up. We are happy when we think of her. We both try to avoid thinking about “what would be” or “what if”. God planned Olivia’s life, and He wanted it to be exactly the way it was – short, sweet, precious. Both of us really believe, trust, and find comfort in that. Don’t get me wrong, we were excited about doing so many things with Livie, and I do get sad when I think about those things sometimes (and sometimes, I get REALLY sad)… BUT I know that God had all of our days with Olivia planned before she was even created. We will get to do ALL of the things that we were excited for… someday, just not with Livie. It really helps us to remind ourselves that Olivia lived the exact life that she was supposed to live… for exactly as many days, minutes and seconds that she was supposed to live it. One day, God will bless Kurt and I with another baby who will be just as perfect and beautiful (or handsome… if it’s a boy), and we will be even better prepared to experience all of those things that we have been imagining.
Being Livie's parents has changed both of us for the better. It has made us capable of seeing what really matters in life... so many things that seemed important to us before, are completely insignificant now. I can't believe how much time I wasted on things that never really mattered. Kurt has said many times that that little girl changed his whole outlook on life, and made him want to speak, think, and act differently. Not that we were horrible people before hand, but ya know. :) It has also taught us not to take anything for granted - we are learning about how important it is to cherish the little things in life, and to live in the moment rather than constantly looking toward the future, because we found out the hard way that the future is never certain.

I know that lots of people are anxious to hear how we're doing, so I will post again soon with an actual update on what's been going on for the past month.


Anonymous said...

After the Von Maur shootings happened, Cate and I were really shook up and we decided to make it a priority to go to church that Sunday. We went to Westside and the sermon was directed towards this exact truth. Nobody can live a life shorter than was intended for them, because Gods plan can not be cut short. Please write a book. Seriously, you give me so much inspiration and I know you could impact millions of life with your words. Okay fine, I'll be your publicist...haha!

Abigail Rose

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