Wednesday, October 20, 2010

October Challenge, Days 16-20

Even though I spend SO much time on the computer each day, I obviously have a VERY hard time remembering that I'm supposed to be posting daily! So here are days 16-20.

Day 16 - A song that makes you cry.

Well, I already put a whole list of songs in my Day 1 post, but I Will Carry You by Selah is one that gets me every single time. I think it's impossible for me to not get emotional no matter when or where I hear this song.  It resonates with me so deeply... I was chosen to carry Livie, and despite all of the things that I wanted to show her and do with her, and no matter how wonderful the life Kurt and I would have created for her could have been, her life with God is even more amazing than that, and He is carrying BOTH of us now. And I am so thankful to Him for allowing me to be her mommy for those 34 weeks and 6 days.

I Will Carry You

There were photographs I wanted to take
Things I wanted to show you
Sing sweet lullabies, wipe your teary eyes
Who could love you like this?

People say that I am brave but I'm not
Truth is I'm barely hanging on
But there's a greater story
Written long before me
Because He loves you like this

So I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All my life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen me
To carry you

Such a short time
Such a long road
All this madness
But I know
That the silence
Has brought me to His voice

And He says...
I've shown him photographs of time beginning
Walked him through the parted seas
Angel lullabies, no more teary eyes
Who could love him like this?

I will carry you
While your heart beats here
Long beyond the empty cradle
Through the coming years
I will carry you
All your life
And I will praise the One Who's chosen Me
To carry you

Day 17 – an art piece (drawing, sculpture, painting, etc) that moves you.
 Our wedding hasn't happened yet! We are about three weeks away - November 13, 2010. We knew we wanted a November wedding, and struggled quite a bit with picking the date. There were only two weekends that we could choose from - The weekend of the 13th, and the 20th. There was some sort of conflict with the 6th, and the weekend after the 20th is Thanksgiving weekend. The 20th is Olivia's birthday. At first, Kurt and I both thought that getting Married on Olivia's birthday would be a wonderful way to honor her. But, after talking to my mom about what Katie's first birthday was like, and reading about it on several blogs... we decided that we wanted to leave that day open so that we can feel free to grieve if we need to. Also, I think that Olivia deserves her own special day, and doesn't need to share it with her parents' anniversary. So, the 13th it is! We are having a relatively small wedding, with only about 130 people. Most of them are our relatives as both of our moms come from huge families. We got our marriage license yesterday! I am beyond excited but also getting to the point where I'm ready for all the planning to be over with so I can get back to living a normal life!

The Angel of Hope statue at Boys Town. I posted about it a few months ago, because it is located literally right in front of the church that we will be married in next month. Here's what the website says about it...
"The Christmas Box Angel of Hope was first introduced to the world in the international best selling book and hit television movie "The Christmas Box," written by Richard Paul Evans. The Original Angel of Hope statue, inspired by the book, was dedicated on December 6, 1994 in Salt Lake City, Utah. Donated by the Compassionate Friends Greater Omaha chapter, this piece is one of 100 identical pieces nationwide. It stands as "a symbol of hope for all parents and loved ones who have experienced the death of a child, not matter what age."

These two Willowtree figurines are especially important to me. Kurt's mom gave us this one. For a combined Mother's Day/Father's Day present, She gave us a single woman & a single man figurine, and this one with the little balloon that says "miss you". I cried when I opened them.

 My Aunt Allison visited us in the hospital the day Olivia was born and brought us this. She said that she wanted to get us something other than flowers, that we could have as a keepsake. I loved it so much and was so touched that she thought of it, and I had no idea what was about to happen or how special to me it would become. it sits on our shelf right next to Olivia's shadow box.
Day 18 - Your Wedding.


Since I don't have any pictures of the wedding to share yet, obviously, here's one of our engagement pictures. We have only seen about 5 of them so far  - our shoot was last week and we're waiting for our photographer to post the rest!



Day 19 - a talent of yours.
I honestly don't think I have one!

Day 20 - a hobby of yours
This is another hard question for me to answer! I have quite a few hobbies, but haven't  had a whole lot of "me" time to work on anything lately. I suppose I'd say that scrapbooking is my favorit hobby. I have SO much supplies its ridiculous... I've joked before that I'm a scrapbooking supplies hoarder. I have a craft "room", which is basically one end of the basement that's enclosed by three walls but opens up to the main living area.It is SUCH a mess right now and badly in need of some organization. It was unorganized before, but now there's a thick layer of wedding projects on top of all the scrapbooking stuff. I'm looking forward to tackling that project soon. One day, I hope to have a craft room like { Amanda }... but that's wishful thinking, right!?
I enjoy doing anything that's creative. Writing, drawing and painting are my favorites, and any type of project that allows me to make something for my home. Maybe someday I'll have more time to do some of the things I've been planning for what seems like forever!
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3 comments:

Holly said...

I love your engagement photo!

Donna said...

Beautiful engagement photo!! You both look so HAPPY! Blessings on much more of that in your future!!!

Jessica Hanson said...

The Selah song touches me deeply as well, we used that song at our daughters funeral. It still makes me stop and catch my breath.

Praying for you, as you come closer to your first year without her.

Love.
Jessica

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