Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Blessings

I'm about to get really religious-y. I know that some of you don't share my beliefs so I'm telling you now. This is my blog where I write about my personal thoughts and beliefs, and if you don't like it... lo siento.

Throughout this journey of loss, I have always believed that God has a plan. I believe that He is good, and that He never gives us more than we can handle, but I also believe that He places obstacles in our path to teach us lessons - to show us that we are stronger than we think we are. This is something that I believed long before Olivia died, and losing her reaffirmed it for me. I know that this isn't what everyone believes... I have even gotten in arguments with family members about this issue. They argued that God would never take a child from his/her parents, and that this must have been the work of the devil. I do not think that the devil took my baby. To me, that's ridiculous and that is what makes that argument seem completely ridiculous to me. I've been told all my life that no one knows what God's plan is or why He does the things He does. We are just to believe that all things in life happen to glorify Him in one way or another, and we will find out the answers to all of our unanswered questions eventually, when it's our turn to leave this place.

On my way home the other day from a frantic search at three different stores for a freaking shamrock cookie cutter (only to get home and find out that we already have 3 of them in different sizes), this song came on the radio. By the end of it I was crying - it was exactly what I needed.

Blessings, by Laura Story

We pray for blessings
We pray for peace
Comfort for family, protection while we sleep
We pray for healing, for prosperity
We pray for Your mighty hand to ease our suffering
All the while, You hear each spoken need
Yet love is way too much to give us lesser things

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if the thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

We pray for wisdom
Your voice to hear
We cry in anger when we cannot feel You near
We doubt your goodness, we doubt your love
As if every promise from Your Word is not enough
All the while, You hear each desperate plea
As long as we have faith to believe

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if Your healing comes through tears
What if the thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise
When friends betray us

When darkness seems to win
We know the pain reminds this heart
That this is not, this is not our home

'Cause what if your blessings come through raindrops
What if your healing comes through tears
What if the thousand sleepless nights are what it takes to know You're near
What if the trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise

Or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

6 comments:

Two People in Love said...

This is beautiful. I totally agree with you. ((hugs))

m&msmommy said...

BEAUTIFUL song! I absolutely love the words-I have never heard it before. Great post and how amazing it is for you to still be SO strong in your faith after your loss of Olivia. Now that is a testament to God if I've ever seen one! :)

~*Caroline*~ said...

I love it.

You don't know me, but I follow your blog (via the bump).

I had a little girl only days after you lost your Olivia (I had her on Nov 25th). So I have often thought about when me and my family were rejoycing, you and your was mourning your loss.

I am a christian as well and couldn't agree with you more on this post! You're a strong woman!

Aaron, Angie, Hailey, Lexi, and Jacob said...

I couldn't agree with you more. God does send little (or big) obstacles to help build our character. You read the Bible stories, and the great Christians you read about didn't have any easier life than we do. They, too, had ostacles. Perfect example: Job. I do agree that Satan didn't take Olivia, God took her back home. Honestly, without Olivia, you wouldn't have "met" a lot of us that follow you. I know I was so touched by your story and how you've leaned on God thru it all. You are going to be a huge witness to others who have lost or will lose their baby (not that I wish that on anyone). Stay strong and continue to thank God for the time you had with Olivia and for the testimony that she is to others. God's blessings to you and Kurt!

Michelle Karr said...

Amen! Beautiful song too. God ways truly are higher than ours. He has to put us in tough times or we wouldn't grow.

The Great Elephant Symposium said...

I totally agree!! God does things for a purpose. For instance in Job and John.

In Job he basically takes everything away from him. His children, cattle, lands, even his health! And because he never what so ever doubted God himself God rewarded him at the end of this rough time.

Same in John when Lazerous dies. Why did God and Jesus let him die? Jesus knew he was sick and yet it took him a few days to go see him...by that time he was dead and then he brought him back to life.

Sorry I got a little to carried away there...whoops!!

I really really think that there is a purpose in all of this. Though I don't know if I will ever get an answer (which annoys me a bit) or not to why all of this happened.

Thinking of you Betsy!!

((hugs))
Mary

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